I want that fairy tale romance that everyone thinks about; I want the guy who will buy me flowers when I’m upset, and the one who will give me a goodnight kiss and cuddle with me until I fall asleep. For once I want the boy that will defend me when his friends are making fun of me. I want the man who will be there for me no matter what and not want me to be upset.. Is that too much to ask for?
Sometimes I wish I could just forget about all of the bad things that have happened to me. The cutting, all of the problems I’ve been through with guys, the miscarriage.. All of it. I’m so done with feeling like trash and feeling like nothing. I’m going to try to live my life the way I want :)
chelszzzx asked: i went through the same thing... with the baby... except my boyfriend didn't want anything to do with it, and didn't really show much emotion afterwards. as for your man, be there for him, he's going through as much pain as you are, it was part of him as well, you know?
Exactly. I love him to death and I know what he’s going through. Every time I get sad or hurt he holds me and he will kiss my forehead. It’s the sweetest thing. We’ve started to move past it but its still so hard to do. But I’m healing which is a good sign :)
This guy right here? Yeah he’s the love of my life. My everything. We went through the worst we could possible go through this week.. We lost our little baby that we didn’t know existed yet. And he hurts just as bad as I do. I can tell and he still loves me just as much as he did before. Maybe even more knowing the fact that I was pregnant with his child. That brings you closer than anything. Whenever it hits me he’s right there and he just holds me when the sadness hit. I can never thank him for that.
I love you dean nicholas hoehn
So it turns out deans as upset with this as me.. He admitted he hasn’t been sleeping well since I told him about the miscarriage.. I feel so bad cause I don’t know how to help him.. :(
Ill openly admit it because I don’t know many of my followers,
But this past Sunday I discovered I had a miscarriage..
My boyfriend and I knew something was going on because I was three weeks late and I was eating so much, my boobs had gotten twice the size they were.. That kind of stuff.. Then I got sick and had to do to the hospital.
They shoved a bunch of medicines into me and a few days later it led to me to miscarry.
My heart is literally broken at the fact of knowing that I had a little boy or a little girl inside of me and he\she was taken away from me.
My boyfriend, dean, won’t talk about it but I know it’s always on his mind.
It’s always on mine…
Your mommy and daddy would have loved you so much of you stayed
My heart is literally broken right now.. I know my body and I know wjen something is wrong…
Finally I’m taking control.
My life is going in the direction I want it to finally. I have a boyfriend who won’t screw me over or hurt me ever again and I have the most amazing friends any girl could ask for. I’m taking control of my anxiety and depression and I’m not letting things get to me. I’m going to college and getting away from the things that made me sad and wanna hurt myself and I have people behind me every step of the way <3
Finally I feel like the luckies girl alive
From now on my blog is going to be different. It’s not going to be about why my life is so depressing anymore. I have so many things to look forward too this year and I’m not going to let a few people stop me.
Like this picture. This is the one person in the entire world that can make me smile when all I want to do is break down and cry. This is the love of my life and the guy I want to marry and I could never be any happier than I am with him
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sometimes i just wanna leave and run away... leave everything behind and just run....
I always just get this blank look back like:
Then I get paranoid...
